Cazza Whatever!

I have never thought about having OCD (and anyone who has visited our messy house would definetely agree!) however when it comes to music I am a total slave to the rhythm! Particularly when I'm running I have to have a certain playlist and it has to be playing or I won't run at all! I remember the hilarity of my hubby when I went out running one day without music but with my new running coach iphone app. I went out excited and motivated and came back very disgruntled and frustrated. "I only walked" I told him, "The man on the app stopped telling me to run, so I didn't!" So why do I have to have music in order to function? Well the fact is I don't think I do have to have MUSIC. I am a slave to rhythm. I need structure and flow in order to function. Whether that comes in the form of music or something else I need it to be secure.I am a very unhappy and quite frankly dysfuctional human being when I don't know what is going to happen next. I thin...

So it's 2.30am and unlike other nights in the last few weeks I haven't been having nightmares which is a relief. I do have strange dreams alot however and it was one the other night that prompted me to blog albeit at such a ridiculous time of night/morning! I won't go through all the wierd and wonderful details (the fact that I had springy shoes or that I was at a school handing out food for lunch) but the main part of the dream was a one liner which I woke up with the following morning and which has stayed with me throughout the day. In my dream I had been talking to someone about a life change that I'm going through regarding work and she said the following "you need to eat less fat and more fruit and veg." Now I happen to be on a diet in real life but as I woke up I was accutely aware that this was about my spiritual life and not my eating habits and it got me thinking- am I getting my five a day? And if so, what are they? I hate to admit it but I...