Choose life.

I am finally admitting that I'm finding life hard. My mum has died. My fish has died. And a bit of my drive and motivation has died too. But I'm finding life in other things. My family immediate and extended, my friends and my creativity. I have found that through opening up I have become vulnerable and full of pain, so much so that tiny little things are painful. But through my opening up others have too, and that is soothing and healing. Everyone has different views on mental health and dealing with it. This is mine right now. 

My favourite things 

Raindrops on roses and sunshine for running
Sleep with no wake ups so I don't feel done in
Thoughts of free time once the microwave pings
These are a few of a my favourite things 

Hair with no sick in (and clothes for that matter)
Facebook debacles and 3am natters
Strictly, X Factor and creative springs
These are a few of my favourite things

When I'm lonely
When I'm anxious
When I'm feeling sad
I simply remember these favourite things and then I don't feel so bad! 

Head space and floor space
And hearing Seb "talking"
Giggles and wriggles 
And more goes at "walking"
Days when grief's distant and memories don't sting
These are a few of my favourite things

Learning with hindsight and sharing with others
Sundays and in laws and fantastic brothers
Long conversations when hubby is in
These are a few of my favourite things

When I'm faithless
When I'm hopeless
When I'm feeling sad
I simply remember these favourite things and then I don't feel so bad! 


Thank you for being part of this new journey I'm on. In death, I choose life.

Comments

  1. fubsybunny19 October 2013 at 16:03

    I love this! So sorry that things are so tough for you at the moment honey, I admire you so much for your openness. I wish I had your bravery xxx

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  2. Unknown20 October 2013 at 03:06

    Inspirational blog and great song Carol. I need to start doing mine. Love you always xxx

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